while some people climb mountains,
they reach greater heights,

while i climb hills,
i’m barely reaching those mountains,

i have to try so hard to get to where i want,
while others don’t even try at all and it’s there.

i hate the feeling of being unmotivated,
i hate being the underdog,

the notion of failure lures me in,
calling my name, trying to get me sucked in.

i don’t want to make you notice me.

i want you to notice me on your own.

maybe in the midst of your ego, you can see someone

else other than yourself.

i don’t like fighting for something i can’t have,
i don’t like trying for you when you don’t try for me,
don’t expect me to like you if you have other girls in line
for you.

all i ever wanted was you to be there.

all i needed was you until i realized i could

do things without you, be without you.

you say what you say,
but you don’t do what you mean,
your actions revolve around me.

but these feelings,
are hard to bear,
there so confusing, everything
you’re telling me.

i wish things were as easy as ABC’s
when we say how we feel and know what it means,

coincidence how times change and seats rearrange,
that A and B would sit accordingly,

but time passes, it closes,
all the possibilities that can be.

we can’t control everything we want to,
but what we can do is change the control we don’t want.

acquaintances.

upon meeting, it’s destine that we, as in people
meet people who are meant to be in our lives,
there are times, in a degree of cycle, when we may not
know someone, but know everyone else they know.

it’s weird how some, meet. while others stay acquainted
with others we do not know. but to think that we’d
meet someone we’re suppose to meet actually let’s me
believe that there is something that ties the two together.

time away, lets me think,
about all the things i wish to do, or have done,
the people i leave behind, the times i let others come in,
but more importantly it makes me realize the friends i’ve made and how important they are in my life.

sometimes people do things for their own good,
other times people do things for other people
without ever asking for anything in return.